Time for my yearly "i am thankful for" post.

there are the things that go without saying, that i type every year: My hero and brother: jamie myers, for who without i would be lost. Next, my family of course, because although we usually don't get along very well, my mom and dad have always been there for me, and i know they're always looking out for me and will love me unconditionally. I'm also very thankful that i've gotten the chance to become a lot closer to my grandma as of late. She's healthier than ever, and it is truly a miracle. My dogs, my home, my bed. I'm also extremely thankful, as i am each day that i'm surrounded constantly by some of the best friends i could ever ask for. They get me through each day, and make life worth living.

Moving on, I've come to find that i'm thankful for Marshall, the education it is giving me, and the chances it creates each day. As my new home, i feel like i made the right choice, which is ever so comforting. As i wish to move away in the near future, to start my own life, i find myself glad that i chose a college closer to come, where i can keep strong relationships with those i care most about. For in the future, this may not be as easy to do.

As cheesy as it is, I'm thankful for my boyfriend.. which is usually in each of these thanksgiving day posts of mine. However, i hope that this time next year, i'll be referring to the same guy; Justin Spradling. Besides making me feel loved and beautiful and comfortable in my own skin.. Justin has opened my eyes to the world. I now look at everything in a different light, and realize that there is more to life than that of which i am living. I don't give him nearly enough credit for all that he has done, but at the end of the day, i'm very thankful for the person he is. At first he was new, and refreshing and everything i was looking for... but now, i don't see myself getting tired of him. He makes me want to be a better person, every single day. Thank you.

With that said, I also find it neccassary to thank all of those guys who have been in my past posts. As they each helped me grow in some way. I wouldn't make the same choices i do today if it weren't for the prior people in my life who showed me love. I am currently closer to some than others, but each of them have helped me and gotten me to where i am today, very content and happy with life. Those lessons will stick with me throughout all of my life. Thank you guys.

Now, onto the frivolous, perks of life i a thankful for :)
- Dasani, Miley Cyrus, sweat pants, the internet, facebook, pictures, Harry Potter, tye-dye, twitter, bright colors, the sky, clouds, my job, scarves, stars, flip flops, cards, The Starting Line, writing, art, painting, drawing, the first amendment, Obama, USA, french fries, chocolate, cars, my high school, cell phones, txting, things that smell good, summer, sunshine, being tan, pools, the beach, georgia, Ohio, the mountains, bronzer, dwight's, laughing, smiling, singing, and each and every aspect of my life.

This is the first time i've been worried about money in my life, and i hate it. With Christmas coming up, needing a new cell phone, and having an 800 credit card bill, i don't know what im gonna do :( It'll kill me if i cant get everyone nice presents this year =/ someone anonomously send me some dough, please?

plus, my dog is getting really old, and really blind. i don't want to lose him :( 

Marshall financial aid make no sense to me.. I haven't been this stressed out in the longest time.. oh, and the best part you ask? I CAN'T GET ANYTHING BUT A BUSY SIGNAL. uh, driving down to Huntington before work tomorrow is that last thing i want to do, but i guess i don't really have a choice.. if i don't get to go to school there in 11 days, i legit do not know what i will do. I haven't cried this much in a long time.

I'd kill to be in justin's arms right now, but of course my worried, scatter brained self has somehow managed to mes everything up. All i want to do is hear from him, but i've  upset him without even trying. I'm about to punch twitter in the face, for each time i get a txt, i literally hope it's him, but it's just miley updating about her new glasses or awesome ice cream, uh.

The suns out, and even it can't cheer me up today. Now, i have to go into work at the hell hole i like to refer to as azkaban and spend a WONDERFUL 5-7 hours with some of the biggest assholes i've ever met. Our DM is there and i really can't take being bitched at about how important look policy is and worrying about my every move.

The only thing i want right now is to know my future at Marshall is safe, sound and paid for. Well, i lied.. i'd also really like a side of justin. THat kid has been the best part of my summer, hands down. WIthout him i'd still be stuck on luke and still having a a huge misconception on what love should be. Every minute i spend with him i am smiling, and it's the greatest feeling in the world. I know we won't be fighting for long, i just wish he could understand how upset i am, hence the reason for my bad mood/bitchiness. He's the only thing i look forward to these days and i refuse to let that slip away.


uh, off to hollister. story of my life.

i can't believe i haven't updated since school, i'm seriously slacking. I'm supposed to be getting ready to head to huntington<3 therefor, i'll have to be quick.

This summer has been amazing and quite sad at the same time, for many reasons. I've finally moved on, and that's been the biggest thing for me, ever.

currently, i love life. i'm pumped to go back to school and there's a really special person in my life :) 

2 finals tomorrow, 2 tuesday and 1 on thursday. then my first year of college is over. Wow, time passes by so fast. I'm really pumped for the next semester thought. Even if my classes do suck, i got into commons and my best friend will be my roommate :) so glad i talked chels into transferring :) 


The britney spears concerct was indescribable. I've never seen a show so good. It was better than the circus. The columbus trip in general was amazing.

Gettting a new roommate is one of the best things that's happened to me this year, I'm so glad i made a new friend that i'll have for a long time. We get along so well, it's great. I wish i didn't break a camera everyone 6months. I'm cameraless, and missing a lot of picture ops these days. Urgh, i may just go charge one on my card. I wish i had rich parents that spolid me sometimes. BLAH 3 more weeks left and then i'm home for the summer :) I'm scheduling tomorrow, and my next semester looks harder than this one, I have no way of getting around biology, but luckily my best friend will be in there with me. Speaking of, SO GLAD Chelsea is going to be joining me in my wonderful life next year! I don't know what i'd do without that girl. I'm hoping to get my grade back up right in time for finals. I'll have an A in english, which i always expect, but the others, if i could pull of C's i'd be super glad. Britney Spears in this weekenddd :) and i CAN NOT WAIT to be screaming my ass off to her tunes, lipsynced or not, i will always adore her :) Luke and I are on amazing terms, we will see how long that lasts =p I feel he may have actually grown up a litle for once, i'd be really happy if that is true :D my heart has never left him, and i think everyone knows that. I shouldn't have ever tried to move on, how unfair of me. I regret hurting the people i did because i wasn't over him, but i'm glad i've realized why i couldn't carry on any other relationship. I guess i better go before i'm late for class, woo classics200 - learning english language through greek and latin roots. KILL ME =p


Life is good. I can't complain.

My freshman year of college is almost over, i'm speechless.
It went faster than any previous school year. I think that's because I lived weekend to weekend, and have never gotten the chance to slow down, with the exception of the few times i've visited home. Which lately has seemed to be one of my favorite things to do, i wore myself out first semester and hated being here, but now, it's always nice to catch up with my family and a lot of old friends. College gives me the best of both worlds. I'm ready to be home for the summer, but i don't know how i feel about it being 3 months long, I think more than anything, i'm just ready for the summer, and sun, and the pool, and my old friends. In one school year, I made some of the best friends i think i'll ever have, and lost both of them. Who i dearly miss (one more than the other ;p) and it makes me realize JUST how fast everything can change, including me. A year ago, i'd never be okay with losing two people but now, I am. I cherish what we had, and look back and smile at those friendships. I'm proud of myself for not being bitter. There will always be a place in my heart for people like that, and they're always welcome back on my doorstep. I'm really excited to see what this summer and my sophomore year has to bring for me. I really need to decide on a major, it's stressing me out, but i'm having one hell of a time whlie doing so.


And dare i say it, i think i've fallen again. like a fortune cookie once said, 'he who loves you, will follow you'. hmmmm.


i hope all the people out there still using LJ are doing awesome :) 

I just lost the most important person in my life.
For once, I have no idea what to do.
I've never felt like this, so miserable and alone.
I'd do anything to get him back.
I'm a complete idiot.
I can't believe I let you ruin so much. I'll never forgive myself for this one.
Never.
I want to go home, I want to run, I want to sleep, and that's about it.
I want to be the reason you're happpy.
I can make you happy.
I know i'm worth it.
Let me prove it to you.

I do not fucking understand how all these girls that are younger than me, haven't even graduated highschool yet are pregnant/have babies. This may be a touchy post but i just do not get it. I could never do it, and i understand the love a person could instantly get for a baby.. but wtf would you ever even put yourself in that situation. I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND.

sorry, but i believe babies deserve to have parents that can support themselves and the child. Have their own house. A car. A dad. oihagoihadogih. ect.


i don't know why this got on my nerves so bad just now.

i'm all better.

I'm completely happy with how something is.
and completely unhappy with about 2 others.

hopefully that will change soon.



it may have been in pieces, but i always gave you the best of me.

ohhh holidays come fast. i want to be back homee :) 

oh and hey you, lets be friends! 

annual thanksgiving rant.

LETS GO.

I'M THANKFUL FORRRR -

Jamie Myers,  the parents and all relatives, my puppies, Zach Holley, alllll of my wonderful friends, the guys i consider brothers, the class of '08, Christen Elswick and every one i've met since, showers, internet, facebook, txting, smilies :), pictures, The Starting Line, the MOULLEYS <3, Strawberry lemonade from chilli's, dasani, scarves, neclaces, boots, the ice rink and hco, black nail polish, bright eye shadow, oddly.. ktb, good memories, bad memories, every memory, mashall, schs, scms, love, smiles, sunshine, finally realizing you weren't worth my time, puzzles, cute babies, the color yellow, heated blankets, beaches, MTV, BARACK OBAMA!, pita pit, cuddling, tanktops, you if you're reading this, snickers, pedeggs, holidays, being young and healthy, moneyz, shopping, nights like last night, days like today, AND like earlier stated... everyone i have encountered in this life. 

You all have made a difference in my life and i have so much love for you all.
It's nice to look back and realize what all you have to be thankful for.
<3
I'm ready for some turkeyyyyz.


i'm gonna compare this years and last to see how much has really changed.

i think i'm going to get a tumblr.
i have had this for so long that everyone entry i post it deletes an old one, and i don't like it.
I've had it throughout highschool, and i feel like i'm now at a new point in my life, which calls for a new journal :) 

i went to dinner with about 15 of the finest people i know today, and my heart is filled with smiles.
later i will hopefully see another gal that completes me then spend the night with the boys that make my life.

if i could have my way, everyday would be full of time with these 25ish people. every minute. plus my dogs. :)

tomorrow is thanksgiving, and i have a lot to be thankful for.

also, i hate the holidays, it seems i'm always in an arguement with someone who means a lot to me, i plan on changing that this year. I don't want to have to put up a 'better days' - googoodolls away message up for once ;p


<3

I never thought i'd LOVE being home so much.

i love being close to my real friends. i love cuddling up with my puppies. my own bed, my own shower, my mall, even hollister. My mom's cooking, my brother, EVERYTHING.

Don't get me wrong, in a week i'm sure i'll be missing huntington, but this is a much needed, loved break :)

also, i think i realized, that for the past.. years. I'm the only person i know who actually won't date a person if it's going to hurt someone else. No, i'm not complaining, because i realize i do it because i care more about people i love than myself... I've just never realized it before, that i'm the only one. Friends will always be more important to me than relationships. And i'm very happy with that. Also, I refuse to badtalk you even though that's all you've been doing. ha. "friends"

 

i'm very content with the way things are, FINALLY.

happy crystal

i'm laughing at a lot of people right now.

i can't wait to be right, as always : )


luckily, i love my life.

you have changed.  everyone sees it, not just me.

i'm stressed about my future, what should i be?

this is becoming quite the little rap.

i don't know a good line for here.

My president-elect is BARAK OBAMA, and for the first time in 8 years, i'm happy about the government :D

i'm glad i got to witness/take part in history.


Yes, we can :) 

Tomorrow is the first election i've been able to put my own 2 cents into, i'm really excited and nervous about the results to be honest. It's gonna be a close race. I'm really pulling for Obama though. I'm also glad tomorrow it will all be over. People get wayyyyy to rude and just oboxious about their choice... i don't think they realize it's just that, A CHOICE... every american has one and i find it so ignorant when people try and change others minds, or tell them they are wrong. It's such a waste of time, and i'm glad it will all finally be over for 8 years. woo.

on the other hand, i love mondays with my bestfriends. <3


OBAMABIDEN08 :) 

i hate not being appreciated.. and i'm just talking as a friend.
i'd give anything for my friends, and not put anything above them. i wish it were the same way.

recently it just feels like my friendship can be easily replaced =/

thank you for being the only one who seems like they need me in there life, regardless the situation.. good or bad. i couldn't thank you enough.